While many people think there is only one year to end each year every kid out there will simultaneously say that there is going to be 2. One being the school year and the other being January 1st and December 30th. This also might just be a "wooptie-doo" moment for a lot of parents as now they have to deal with their kids over the summer but for kids everywhere we rejoice at the end of the school year. My year is definitely almost over but can't be over yet. This is because my teachers thought it would be really interesting to put all of the finals on tomorrow and Friday and Friday isn't even a whole day. I don't have much to look forward too but by golly I'm going to make sure that I have an awesome summer as there won't be very much more after this one where I can say I had all the time in the world to do nothing.
Sadly year after year I have made sure that my Summers were free and unburdened. Well this seemed to create a predicament in my head. You see I'm old enough at this moment to attempt to start getting a job. I don't know about you but I have done very little over the Summer and I don't know what I will do. I do know that I will at least be attempting to get a decent job even if it is just bagging groceries. This means though that I have not been using my summers very well in the past in my head since I don't have very many good memories to think back on through the summers. Not saying that I have bad memories but I don't know if that would be bad.
If you couldn't tell this Summer is going to be a major turning point for me and I hope that it will go well. I might get my permit over the summer, get a job, start saving money, and pretty soon be ready to be self sufficient. It is the one summer where things take a turn for better or for worse. I've never looked forward to summer for anything but swimming but now all of the cards are on the table and its my turn to make my plans see what I'm going to do with what I have been given. Am I going to deny what I have and breakdown or am I going to get things done and get ready for a better future? Only time will tell once again and its always in a foreign language.
Wednesday, May 28, 2014
Wednesday, May 21, 2014
Reaching new heights.
Thank you everyone once again for showing up and I also have to say thank you again for a slightly different reason. This would happen to be the fact that I have reached over 7000 total views in this almost 2 year spanning. That is a huge deal to me and I hope that everyone out there can celebrate with me on such a momentous occasion. I'm not quite there to my main goal of 10,000 but it won't be much longer now, will it? I don't have many bad things to say about today at all in fact I can even go as far as to say that things are only getting better at the moment.
Having just got back from my first meeting for newspaper I am absolutely stoked to see whats going to happen in the next school year. You see at this point all I to do over the summer is sell ads for the school paper which is definitely going to be hard but should be very rewarding. It will allow me to get better at social interaction again because I can still be just a little bit awkward when talking to people after spending so much time in home school. Other than that I still have at least a little bit of work to do.
For example some of the work I have to do includes making sure I can do whatever work is assigned to me. This could include gathering information, doing research, and then some. I know I am more prepared then I have ever been for taking on this work but there is still this little bit of doubt that has been bothering me. What if I'm not going to be able to live up to the standards of the rest of the newspaper staff? Probably not going to be a problem as I'm only a Freshman and English is one of my best classes so I'm probably worrying for nothing.
Having just got back from my first meeting for newspaper I am absolutely stoked to see whats going to happen in the next school year. You see at this point all I to do over the summer is sell ads for the school paper which is definitely going to be hard but should be very rewarding. It will allow me to get better at social interaction again because I can still be just a little bit awkward when talking to people after spending so much time in home school. Other than that I still have at least a little bit of work to do.
For example some of the work I have to do includes making sure I can do whatever work is assigned to me. This could include gathering information, doing research, and then some. I know I am more prepared then I have ever been for taking on this work but there is still this little bit of doubt that has been bothering me. What if I'm not going to be able to live up to the standards of the rest of the newspaper staff? Probably not going to be a problem as I'm only a Freshman and English is one of my best classes so I'm probably worrying for nothing.
Wednesday, May 14, 2014
Incoming!
I have to say that things are getting pretty darn close to the end of the year with only 10 days left in the year I am really interested to see how my first "year" ends here in Park Hill South. The "year" is because I haven't actually been going to school for a full year but you guys get the basic idea. Either way tomorrow we start the Finals and EOC testing schedule which is going to mess with things horribly. The new schedule will destroy times in classes for a while by taking 30 minutes from one class and then tacking it onto the other classes to get a solid 2 hours in one class and you only get 1 hour in the original classes. In other words you fall behind in one class while in the other one you are testing before your finals! It is chaos entirely and I think I heard that the grades for the year were being pulled today.
Along with my new things going on in school with the schedule change I am going over Shakespeare for the first time and honestly I'm doing alright despite my........dislike of most poetry. I find it hard for me to appreciate art work of just about any form. From poetry to paintings there is a lot of art in the world but I can't relate with any of them very easily. You may say that Shakespeare isn't art but it is pretty darn close to poetry so I'm going to count for my purposes and explanation. Poetry and me have had a rough history but I think I'm getting the hang of it lately but why not have a change in things. Shakespeare isn't that bad and its cool to read a little bit of Shakespeare to add to my list of authors.
I'm also seeing Leif again which is really nice and with his help we managed to do a crash course on all of my science curriculum in about 2 hours. I love it because seriously I learned more from him and then some than from my actual teacher in school. My Science teacher isn't that bad but I have to say Leif did a pretty good job. I still feel pretty bad about missing my meetings with him and I don't know how long it will take for me to get rid of that feeling as a bad thing but instead as another tool in my repertoire like all other experiences that we have. I won't forget but I hope to be able to make things work better this time around.
Along with my new things going on in school with the schedule change I am going over Shakespeare for the first time and honestly I'm doing alright despite my........dislike of most poetry. I find it hard for me to appreciate art work of just about any form. From poetry to paintings there is a lot of art in the world but I can't relate with any of them very easily. You may say that Shakespeare isn't art but it is pretty darn close to poetry so I'm going to count for my purposes and explanation. Poetry and me have had a rough history but I think I'm getting the hang of it lately but why not have a change in things. Shakespeare isn't that bad and its cool to read a little bit of Shakespeare to add to my list of authors.
I'm also seeing Leif again which is really nice and with his help we managed to do a crash course on all of my science curriculum in about 2 hours. I love it because seriously I learned more from him and then some than from my actual teacher in school. My Science teacher isn't that bad but I have to say Leif did a pretty good job. I still feel pretty bad about missing my meetings with him and I don't know how long it will take for me to get rid of that feeling as a bad thing but instead as another tool in my repertoire like all other experiences that we have. I won't forget but I hope to be able to make things work better this time around.
Wednesday, May 7, 2014
The perfect song
Within my English class I have been working on a very interesting project. The project was to take a song that you enjoy and pull it apart for as much Figures of Speech as you could. This lead me to the question of what would be the perfect song instead of my favorite as my favorites are either foreign or have no words. In that situation I talked to the parents and they helped point me in the right direction for an awesome song choice. This song was Jeremy by Pearl Jam. A very good song that many people have probably heard before. I was ecstatic to actually have a decent song and I may not actually know my current grade but that won't stop me from looking at how good I did.
In other really cool news chemists all over the world rejoice over the founding of the 117th element of the periodic table. Pretty awesome if you ask me but I would never think that I was so interested in Science and let alone Chemistry. In fact I have been having a lot of fun within my Science class minus all of the math that goes with Physics. I guess you learn a little bit more with each passing day.
What to say, what to say. I really have no clue what to write about half the time so here's the exercise I usually end up doing. Type something like the first sentence at the top and leave it. It allows you to expand on your own thoughts like having a conversation. Kinda like using the words "I like to" and then leaving a large blank afterwards. The editing comes later though but I try to leave my blog minimally edited. Another good tip is try to avoid allowing music or other distractions go with you. Like having a family member staring over your shoulder can slow you down and distract you if you want to talk or explain what you are writing. Finally make sure you think ahead about what you plan on writing about. This way when some kind of interruption does come along you can keep yourself on the straight and narrow.
In other really cool news chemists all over the world rejoice over the founding of the 117th element of the periodic table. Pretty awesome if you ask me but I would never think that I was so interested in Science and let alone Chemistry. In fact I have been having a lot of fun within my Science class minus all of the math that goes with Physics. I guess you learn a little bit more with each passing day.
What to say, what to say. I really have no clue what to write about half the time so here's the exercise I usually end up doing. Type something like the first sentence at the top and leave it. It allows you to expand on your own thoughts like having a conversation. Kinda like using the words "I like to" and then leaving a large blank afterwards. The editing comes later though but I try to leave my blog minimally edited. Another good tip is try to avoid allowing music or other distractions go with you. Like having a family member staring over your shoulder can slow you down and distract you if you want to talk or explain what you are writing. Finally make sure you think ahead about what you plan on writing about. This way when some kind of interruption does come along you can keep yourself on the straight and narrow.
Wednesday, April 30, 2014
The Teacher Dilemma
I have this really awesome teacher at the moment by the name of Mr. Schasteen. He is currently teaching my English class and has helped us go through the Odyssey so far. He will be with us for the rest of the year but sadly he won't be with us come the end of the year. You see he is a long term substitute and an awesome one at that. He has made English fun so that even people that don't exactly like him seem to enjoy the class to a decent degree. He even has appropriate lessons to go with everything so as a reward for finishing the Odyssey we all sit down and watch O Brother Where Art Thou. I know it sounds like an odd movie but it is almost a complete homage to the original Odyssey. In other words a really cool teacher. I'm kinda sad to see the end of the year come up because there is no way of telling if he will manage to get a job at the school like he wants to do. Either way I wish the best of luck for him.
On a lighter note I seem to be doing really good within Physical Science at the moment. The reason behind this is because the class is leaning much more towards Physics at the moment. If I haven't said it before I used to study Physics on the side of school while I was interested in trying to make my own black hole. I even bought my own textbook to work out of but was unprepared for the thing since I didn't know most of the math that was required. I ended up not following my goals due to my lack of knowledge and my hatred for math in the end but I have retained a good chunk of the knowledge that went into all of this so I'm doing really well within my class and has even reignited my old interests within the study of the basic laws of the universe.
School is almost done and over with for all you out there that don't know. In fact it is literally 21 days left today. It is almost scary to think of the EOC's that are literally just around the corner. I'm ready for them to come but knowing how close it is doesn't help me at all. I mean seriously there is very little to look forward to as far as EOC's other than the end of the school year has come and its onto next year for you. Not much else to say really since its a dreaded experience remembered by all.
On a lighter note I seem to be doing really good within Physical Science at the moment. The reason behind this is because the class is leaning much more towards Physics at the moment. If I haven't said it before I used to study Physics on the side of school while I was interested in trying to make my own black hole. I even bought my own textbook to work out of but was unprepared for the thing since I didn't know most of the math that was required. I ended up not following my goals due to my lack of knowledge and my hatred for math in the end but I have retained a good chunk of the knowledge that went into all of this so I'm doing really well within my class and has even reignited my old interests within the study of the basic laws of the universe.
School is almost done and over with for all you out there that don't know. In fact it is literally 21 days left today. It is almost scary to think of the EOC's that are literally just around the corner. I'm ready for them to come but knowing how close it is doesn't help me at all. I mean seriously there is very little to look forward to as far as EOC's other than the end of the school year has come and its onto next year for you. Not much else to say really since its a dreaded experience remembered by all.
Wednesday, April 23, 2014
Ideas!
Welcome back everyone to another day in my life. Nothing too much going on lately but that will always change by the end of my blog. I don't really have much to go over yet on my head but another problem will arise. Like maybe things with not hearing from Leif lately. That is my fault of course since I haven't gotten in contact with him. Still it leaves me thinking back to my punishment ending and the consequences that came with that.
Becoming ungrounded comes with a little bit more effort than just those 30 days of no computer. I also must find a better way of meeting up with Leif. This of course is one thing that has plagued me for a while but under a good recommendation from dad I'm going to try and set up a reminder system on my phone. I really don't like using my phone as a reminder as I don't want to be the kind of person who relies on his phone for everything. That's not just speculation but just about every other kid my age sits there on their phone for no reason what so ever. It's a good start but its the phone or something like a notification on the computer that works as a pop up and I don't have one that I trust.
The main reason why I don't want to be like everyone else eludes even my closest friends. With an opening like that you could guess that I'm going to go into why I want to be unique. I have lived my life as well as I can and would change none of it. The ups, the downs, the loops, and the absolute failures. Then another thought comes along that haunts my deepest dreams. What if everything I did was just as easy and could be accomplished by anyone else and I am nothing special. What if everything in life that you have worked towards was just hard by the person in the situation. What if you become another face in the crowd after all of your hard work to become a unique and special person with traits and quirks that make us ourselves. This will bother me for a long time, that I might find someone that could do everything I have done, or maybe they have done what I have done and better. A more perfect version of myself might lurk around the corner and I might never know. The fear does not come from the idea of failed dreams but that I didn't learn everything from my mistakes.
Becoming ungrounded comes with a little bit more effort than just those 30 days of no computer. I also must find a better way of meeting up with Leif. This of course is one thing that has plagued me for a while but under a good recommendation from dad I'm going to try and set up a reminder system on my phone. I really don't like using my phone as a reminder as I don't want to be the kind of person who relies on his phone for everything. That's not just speculation but just about every other kid my age sits there on their phone for no reason what so ever. It's a good start but its the phone or something like a notification on the computer that works as a pop up and I don't have one that I trust.
The main reason why I don't want to be like everyone else eludes even my closest friends. With an opening like that you could guess that I'm going to go into why I want to be unique. I have lived my life as well as I can and would change none of it. The ups, the downs, the loops, and the absolute failures. Then another thought comes along that haunts my deepest dreams. What if everything I did was just as easy and could be accomplished by anyone else and I am nothing special. What if everything in life that you have worked towards was just hard by the person in the situation. What if you become another face in the crowd after all of your hard work to become a unique and special person with traits and quirks that make us ourselves. This will bother me for a long time, that I might find someone that could do everything I have done, or maybe they have done what I have done and better. A more perfect version of myself might lurk around the corner and I might never know. The fear does not come from the idea of failed dreams but that I didn't learn everything from my mistakes.
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
Ungrounded!
I am finally ungrounded from my punishment which is by the awesome. I can actually type in front of my computer right now while I talk to everyone. Seriously, I am so happy to be able to type this on my computer instead of on Kristi's Chrome book. The ability to work on my own computer also comes with the perks of being able to hang out with my friends on some random game. I don't like talking about what games I play just because of my audience but I can say that I enjoy them among other things when I can.
Kristi has just gotten out of yet another one of here surgeries which is sad at how insensitive I am towards them now. I do fear what could happen one day but I also know just how capable here doctors are and how tough she is. I fear that one day something will go wrong but I don't think I would ever see it coming. Much like a 16 wheeler hitting you full speed in your fenced off back yard. I can't sit here worrying though since she has made it through the surgery and she is apparently doing pretty good. All in all I think I have a reason for being comfortable with her condition.
Other then all of that I'm pretty comfortable with my overall life. I can see properly and school is looking really good for me. In fact its looking so good at the moment that I'm able to be relaxed about school for the first time in forever. Home schooling was hard, and flexible so while not as brutal as public school I didn't get to truly relax. Now of course I'm doing so well at the moment that I can sit here comfortably with little to no worry. I would say that I'm doing pretty darn well really.
Kristi has just gotten out of yet another one of here surgeries which is sad at how insensitive I am towards them now. I do fear what could happen one day but I also know just how capable here doctors are and how tough she is. I fear that one day something will go wrong but I don't think I would ever see it coming. Much like a 16 wheeler hitting you full speed in your fenced off back yard. I can't sit here worrying though since she has made it through the surgery and she is apparently doing pretty good. All in all I think I have a reason for being comfortable with her condition.
Other then all of that I'm pretty comfortable with my overall life. I can see properly and school is looking really good for me. In fact its looking so good at the moment that I'm able to be relaxed about school for the first time in forever. Home schooling was hard, and flexible so while not as brutal as public school I didn't get to truly relax. Now of course I'm doing so well at the moment that I can sit here comfortably with little to no worry. I would say that I'm doing pretty darn well really.
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